The Struggle

Happy Tuesday Everyone!

I don't know about any of you, but I have been seriously struggling lately. I've hit that wall that we all do when we diet. That wall that tells you this isn't fun anymore. When you first start a diet, the first 3 or so months are somewhat of a honeymoon phase, where you are excited that you are losing weight and people are noticing how great you look. But similar to any other addiction, the cravings come back. This is where I am at right now.

I find that I reach this delusional state of mind after I have lost a little bit of weight, that I can suddenly eat whatever I want and the weight will continue to fall off. This, of course, is not true. It also doesn't help that for the last 3 weeks I have been on hormone overdrive because my cycles were affected by the infection that I had in my ear (for some very strange reason). PMS is no joke. I don't crave chocolate, like most cliché PMS cravings. I crave carbs. Pasta, and bread, and donuts, OH DONUTS! Krispy Kreme donuts are my weakness. I usually don't like sugary treats, but I will always make an exception for some Strawberry glazed with sprinkles.

So here's the thing. I can feel that I've gained weight back. I notice it most in my face. I feel more sluggish, and just that moving in general is more difficult. I don't own a scale, but I can tell that the weight has started to creep back. And so I feel like I'm starting all over again. Once you give in to those cravings, it's just as hard to wean yourself off of them as when you first began.

For those of you who follow my Pinterest account, I have a board of motivation that I pinned when I first started it, but have not looked at it for a while. This morning, I kind of gave myself the mental "snap out of it" slap and looked at the board for some support in essentially starting over again. I look it as falling off the wagon and giving in to my drug of choice. One of the inspirational sayings that I pinned really struck hard with me:

Chill. Let's be realistic here. You don't drop two jean sizes in one day. you won't lose fifty pounds in one month. You're going to binge every now and then. You will go a day or two without working out. Your weight is going to fluctuate here and there. You're going to try new techniques, and they're not going to work. You're human. You're going to fail. But nothing great is every accomplished without a few obstacles. Girl, you got this.